I have onion eyes tonight. I have been drying onions it seems for the past month. My onions in my grow boxes have done quite well, I've gotten some really fat ones out of the bunch. I won't need to grow onions for years because i have so much dried onions in storage. They are good to have for cooking and especially when fresh onions can go bad in a short time. I just don't cook with onions often enough to use up a fresh onion before it either sprouts green roots or black slime.
Enough about onions, I'm surprised I have had time to cut onions to dry. This summer has been excruciating to get through. The kids have been around each other way too much. They have picked at each other from boredom. Savannah and Sierra have this copycat annoying antagonism thing going on to the point of Sierra screaming. I'm tired of going to the pool and sitting for 2 to 3 hours watching everyone get wet and look good in swimsuits. I'm tired of beating myself up for allowing the kids to play on electronic devices for 2 to 3 hours because I don't know what else to do with them.
I'm still lingering in my blue episode...it's gotten better but still lingers. My motivation umph is zip. Although when I do have the kids on a computer occupied, I do try to paint or draw something. But only if I'm on my xanax. The increased dosage of the buspar has created that restless feeling that can drive me crazy with that pacing feeling and not motivated to do anything. It is a mess. I've been sleeping in real late in the mornings mostly because I feel like a drug hangover and I'm avoiding bored kids in the morning. If I could make the day go by faster, I would stay in bed all day. But that won't be happening. I have rearranged my nightly dosage to 15 instead of 30 to see a difference and that seems to be working. I'm not as groggy in the morning and I'm functioning earlier in the morning...still don't want to get out of bed to face the day but now I think I can wake up to get the kids ready for school. Just one more day! They need social interaction, challenges, activities, recess, something other than go around the house watching TV and irritating each other.
Maybe with school starting and beginning to have time to myself to try to function I'll get myself together, get this house together better, produce artwork and get that together, write in my blog more often. I have so much hanging on school starting...I hope it's not a disappointment.
