I want to throw something

The realm of agitation seemed to have crept in. More likely slammed in. I'm irritated with everything right now. I'm finally by myself and I'm still irritable. And it's not even PMS. I've been reading about triggers lately and I wonder getting frustrated with my kids triggered the agitation. It's not situational agitation, it's lasting, here-to-stay agitation. I hate it. I had to stop painting because I was starting to muddy-up the top half. I'm trying to express mania using color and lines and so far nothing seems to be meshing with the depression half of the painting. In light of this new direction in my abstract paintings, I decided to develop a painting based on the mood level chart Steve always shows me each time I come for a visit. I have the severe, moderate, and mild depression settled but the upper end is not working well together. I think I need more white, then scratch out the red lines. I'll try that tomorrow if I can be left alone. I do notice I become quickly agitated when I feel the creativity pumping and then I'm frequently interrupted by whines, fussing, demanding, and anything else annoying. I'm so tired of the mess around here. I'm tired of having to constantly entertain my kids. They need to use their imagination and un-bore themselves. They need to find something that does not involve pestering each other. I need to just go sit and watch Grimm on TV.