Today has been quite the battle with the irritable monster. Irritable this morning for feeling groggy. Irritable with the idea of cleaning house for upcoming weekend guests. Irritable with Sierra's quick temper that has blossomed this past couple weeks. Irritable with Celeste for not gathering all the details she needs for the middle school's triathlon that she did not train for at all. Although, through complete stubborn determination that she apparently inherited from me, she managed to complete her course - not the best time but she finished without quitting - I'm proud of her. Continuing the irritability with my youngest two antagonizing each other to screaming point. Irritable with the odor caused by my old dog and young one who knows better than to pee in the house. Irritable with the complaints made by Jared about the cat pooping on his canyoneering gear. I don't know why and I can't seem to figure out a way to make her stop. I just think she smells the outdoors and uses it.
And now I'm irritable because I have to stay up and wait for our in-law guests to arrive. Jared has been up for over 24 hours because of stupid drunks and he needs to go to bed but I hate having to be the social one. I'm irritable if I have to be sociable! This social anxiety thing has gone on long enough but I can't seem to snap out of it. I just feel awkward.
The house is quiet for right now so the monster is sleeping. I have vented. I feel calmer. Hopefully the monster will be quiet tomorrow as I'm left watching a strong-willed five year old and fiery four year old, her cousin, while everyone one else goes play in the canyons. Lucky me.
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